Feeling like a misfit, and that’s ok

Oh hai self doubt! Why, here we go.

AGAIN.

Things can turn around so fast. From feeling pumped and motivated to mjeh. I’m currently sitting here feelig sorry for myself. Doubting and stuff.

Picture this. Once again you reflect over your life and wonder why you feel like such a misfit. Why you’re such a bad friend. Why it’s so hard for you to get new friends. Why you can’t function properly with others, or work in a team. The list goes on. Doesn’t matter how hard you try, you just keep failing. You just want to hibernate on the couch and stuff yourself with cheap cookies. You don’t even like those cookies but you’ll eat them anyway!

Self esteem. Why are you so damn fragile?

WHY.

This is exactly why I blog actually.

I’m not afraid of feeling vulnerable. I wanna write about setbacks, not just rainbows and happy unicorns. Try to figure out how to slay them. The setbacks, not the unicorns ◠◡◠

No but really. Lately I’ve been feeling a bit weird. I’ve tried to force myself to change and become someone that others expect me to be. I can’t give them what they want. It will never be me. I feel so wrong. Where do I belong?

Hahaha did it rhime again? Maybe I should get into poetry if everything elsOh STOP IT ALREADY, ANDREHA!

You so silly.

Sorry if I’m a bit vague. Can’t be too personal here, since I’m in the middle of this. Things are complex. Bleh.

Well. I’m gonna allow myself to feel crappy today. I know that it will pass. It goes up and down, up and dooooown… Break down, accept, get up and soldier on. Then start all over again.

Everyone feels worthless sometimes, and that’s OK.

I’m ok.

You’re ok.

Yeah.

Feel free to join my self-pity party today. Just make sure you forgive yourself afterwards. I’m gonna have to remind myself of that part.

Cheers.

 

 

4 Comments

  1. Kevin Gallagher 28 December, 2016 at 13:56

    Yes totally get where you are Andreha, can be difficult to get back up at times, can be difficult to feel excited about creating, but it’s got to be done.
    Thanks for the blogging it’s very inspiring and relatable.

    Reply
    1. Andrea 24 January, 2017 at 20:05

      Thanks Kevin! It’s comforting knowing that you’re not alone during the crappier days :)

      Reply
  2. Miguel Angelo 28 December, 2016 at 21:01

    You’re not worthless. Chin up, clear your head, be with your loved ones and enjoy your holidays. This is the best thing you can do right now. And i honestly hope you have a blast of a time.

    Don’t lose hope

    One way or another, things will get better.

    Cheers!

    Reply
    1. Andrea 24 January, 2017 at 20:04

      Thanks for your kind words :) I feel great at the moment, but allow myself to feel down sometimes. I had a good rest during the holidays, and feel energized again. Hope you had an awesome time too, and wishing you a great 2017! <3

      And you're right, things can always get better :)

      Reply

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